when its good, its real good

things are good, im not hungry. i have results in almost everything i working on. its summer, its warm. night riding is awesome. days are good, i could go on and on.

mainly its good today because i was in park city all day. i didnt even have my bike. i was at pcmr just like 20 feet away from stage 2 of next weeks race. i couldnt believe it. i went to this seminar all day at the lodge, i looked out the back glass door and the trail was right there. you may think so what but read on.


first you must understand why i was there and what it has to do with next week which are totally random events.

first i was hangin with gary acevedo, i have been listening to him speak for 4 years about the same things and each time i get something on a whole new level. today was about the parent/child relationship that goes on inside your head. the beat up and reward system you put yourself through mostly subconsiously? but sometimes you know youre beating your self up with verbal abuse.

i didnt think i was so bad, but i was one of the worst self beat cases i have heard of. its mostly self name calling and such. not good for racing, or anything for that matter.

so im hearing this speech for the 20 time and looking outside wondering why now and why here. 20 feet away from the 1 hr climb up into jupiter bowl.

well lets see, the obvious is dont kick your own ass up this long climb. gravity will do that for you.

2nd dont focus on results. i could go on for awhile here but i hope you get the picture. ya sure its helpful not to call yourself a fat slow washed up has been. thats obvious. but its harder to change than you think. look at me the last 2 years. it takes time and im workin on it. plus is mostly sub consious and thats a whole new game.

other news.

i just rode up emigration in the dark and it was awesome. i hauled ass with sub 40 min climb home. thats a new record and i wasnt even pegged. big ring it and no pain. maybe its the melon. maybe its the 10 lbs i lost this week, maybe its the empty stomach, could be the very low hours of riding i have done since saturday. all i know is i was on fire and i didnt eat any food all week.

i dont call fruit and lettuce fuel for training.


anyway i hope i can feel like this next week cuz i want to shred, and after the last few years of frustration things are workin out for the better and there is nothin better than results for bustin my ass for so long.

i gotta get back to adrian karsten, hes my favorite.