blind sided

if any of you check this regularly (i dont know why) the last year has been pretty lame with nothing exciting or nothing at all. the last 5 weeks have been pretty much the hardest of my life. if you know me personally you know the story. if you dont then im sure if you keep reading you will get an idea.

i thought my life was pretty good, a 6 weeks ago, or 2 months ago. or 6 months ago. it seems i wasnt paying attention to the details and i had a sense something wasnt as it should have been. then life knocked me on my ass and the last 5 weeks i've been trying to digest and catch up to what has happened. most of the days i just sit and think what the fuck went wrong. how i could have changed it, how or why it happened and where the hell was i when the path went down the wrong road. i was too into my bubble i guess, watching stupid shows on tv and burying myself into a job im not too fond of right now. getting off track with racing and riding. totally abandoning the sport i've done my whole life. not even touching the bike for months at a time and when i decided to make changes in sept. it was way too late. the whole month of sept i rode a bit, i was so fat and unfit it disgusts me. it took like a month to feel normal again. then that brings me to swap season and the last post i wrote while i was in nj/pa/nyc. looking at that post just makes me sick, the pics i have and memories of what i once had and didnt know it makes me sick.

if you dont want to read more of this sob story just turn this blog off because im sure its going to keep coming for a few months.

i debated even writing this, but as i abandoned my bike, i did the same with this blog. i need an outlet to write and doing it on paper in private doesnt work for me. i'd rather lay it all out for anyone to see.

im pretty much misunderstood because im a recluse. i dont show much to many and this usually plays against me.

the last five weeks i moved out of my house, split with my gf, lost my cats, almost lost all will to live, lost interest in work, in eating, in pretty much everything. if it wasnt for some friends that helped me out over the last month i dont know what or where i would be.

so i must write to be creative, to outlet some thoughts, like riding, hammering the big ring up a steep climb until you pass out or throw up, moving energy into some positive outlet.

so i pretty much set this whole pain thing up myself, to force myself to face some deep dark caves i have been avoiding my whole life. pushing someone close to me away to the point of them making the moves to force my own growth. its pretty much the worst thing ever but i think back and i knew this was coming and i tried everything in my power to avoid it.

if i want something better i think i have to travel this long dark tunnel alone and its freaking me out like no other horror movie.

getting back to the basics.

on my own again, no one to take care of but myself and that alone is way harder than probably 10 kids.
getting back to some meaningful hours on the bike , with focus and determination that only a few others i know have, that matches me.

nurturing a passion that has died , dried up and blown away with nobody at fault but my own.

finding a balance, that has eluded me my whole life. not too much and not too little.

finally learning the biggest lesson of my life, it was a very expensive lesson and it cost more than money is worth.

hopefully learning to apply these to future events so i dont have to go through this again.

maybe next time i'll come up with something more light of heart and funny.
until then i need to write and get this out.

i dont usually go out to raves or clubs but if the best dj in the world is out at the salt lake i would think anyone would want to see at least an hour of it, even if it is at 2am

tri state tour with non stops to the city

non stops to the east coast are the way to go. 3.5 hrs slc to nyc with a tail wind that would have any cyclist spinning out the 56x11.
130mph tail wind makes for 2000 miles in short time.

check out this kick ass tecno remix 4min 50 to 5min 30




just got back from newark the other day, the tri state tour, nyc, newark trexler town, bushkill pa.
one might think newark/nyc is a big metropolis, dirty and over populated. which it is but 10 miles out of nyc in nj the forests are loaded with deer. nj turnpike north to boonton/mahwah/bushkill there were 3 dead prong horns on the freeway. including a fresh kill that was still quivering. with the killer, an suv stopped with a smashed grill.

the east coast bike culture is alive with many deals to be had, and lots of people showing up in the light morning mist.

next week denver

nov. san fran. tucson.

dec bend/kona/maui.

the season of bounty is upon us.

be sure to checkout the sly cash zone saturday at heber, and a halloween saturday at wheeler with the gilly suit and air horn in the woods.

if anyone is stupid enough to get this i guess they deserve to die

you got to ask yourself, why is the media bombarded with fear and "free" flu shots. why does the government care about your health to the point of having free drive up flu shots?

they dont give a damn about your health. they want to make you sick, to the point of death. 1 for population control. and 2, to make tons of money off your health care insurance before you die.

if you dont believe this you are part of the lemming heard that needs to be exterminated.

survival of the fitest, or smartest.

thin out the world population by eliminating the weak and stupid.

anything thats plastered on tv in fear is the key to learning what not to believe.

you also have to understand this doesnt kill people over night, it takes years to wear down a human immune system. unless one is very young or old and already weakened and sick.

my friend is a doctor, he told me a family relative has a 4 month old baby, within 48hrs of the vaccine the baby died.

you will never hear this on the local nightly news. the media is controlled by the same people trying to kill you. they put whatever they want to scare you with on the news. they wont report these kind of deaths, and or they will be blamed on something else.

the US government just indemnified the 5 makers of the vaccine, which made it possible for no one to sue them.

cash, gilly suits and wheeler farm

i cant wait to wear this around at wheeler farm and bring the fat grip of cash

but without that gun n scope, maybe a chainsaw instead

blanket creek with hitler

i found the fox den

shauna lyn and big hoss

we went down to vegas for interbike and stopped off at the gold n silver pawn shop on the strip. the pawn stars on history channel sunday nights.

this is the original fox den. i bought it from sportsmobile.com back in sept 2002. we drove it around the country for about 90k miles. seattle to tijuana, san fran to vermont, canada to new mexico and every where in between.

i sold it to a guy here in salt lake about 4.5 yrs ago and i saw it yesterday in vegas parked near the venetian. it still has the canyon bicycles bumper sticker and now its california plates. i dont know who owns it but its weird to see it parked there.

the emotions ran high as i feel i have found a long lost family member.

long live the foxden.

also checked out cross vegas, the most popular but basic cross course every made. lots of spectators, zero technical ability. all on thick grass.

the best thing i saw at the show was the new cannondale lefty simon. its not like an old ELO, computerized display with a bar mounted joystick lever. its kind of like an sworks brain but for the lefty and has way more features. its not in production but it should be.

my dogs are barkin

23,000 some steps walkin around this park today ridin 17 famously fast roller coasters.

this 2nd vid is top thrill dragster, 0 to 120mph in 2 sec, going up 350 feet vertical.
thats 120mph bowel evacuating speed. i didnt make the vid, so the timing is off. forward it to 1min 30sec.

fire it up

after a year of mental break down, a summer of facebook,

turn this thing back on after 3 months of sitting around all summer and getting fat.

got pretty bored so i put together a used scalpel out of old mona vie parts, that i ganked from chippos garage.

everyone was wondering when i would get sick of doing nothing but posting crap on facebook all day and start riding again.

and changed my name to moonwillow

well last week i decided to get my lazy ass in gear, then watched all my friends race in pc saturday, wishing i was up there waxing alex and bart.

so everyone probably doesnt check this page anymore so i'll be back on here from time to time. did a lot of moto sessions logging around 4,000 miles on the scooter,

motoing pain addicts, like ali g, kelsey k, jeff l, darren l, tiff p, nicole e,

atrain, stormin, robby s, tbird, lewis from hong kong, one time jeff brought booky and stevey b.

cx season is near, mostly will be at some wheelers with the slyfox cash zone, cross vegas, ohio next week, veloswap in oct, philly, san fran, tucson in nov and hawaii around new years.

busy swap season with some racing and riding mixed in.

time to get off the couch and rip the trail

If history repeats itself, I should think we can expect the same thing again,. . . . slyfox domination.

welcome to the no post blog worse than atrain and bart g

we dont blog anymore so stop checking back. stop following me.

trainers in june

name the cat 1's that dont like riding in the rain and win a prize.

WWED?

this is my tabby moose, he likes to chill in boxes.

billy vs vince

respect the van

treasure island

bay bridge, treasure island, alcatraz.

San fran today. 65 and sunny.

thanks but no thanks

rumour has reported im behind the autobus, thanks but if you truly know me i would have claimed such spectacular wit and jokes for myself. why leave it to the anonymous?

i have endorsed the autobus, i know the author, he has told me to leave his identity hidden.

so i will continue to take the heat for you, in order for the jokes to be told and the ego's to be bruised.

you probably know the autobus, hes everywhere. hes fast, and hes for real.

he races fast at mtn bike, cross and road.

he has his own blog

he has funny jokes

and you probably have talked to him week after week and not even suspected him.

thats all the clues you will get from sly, as if i say much more the genius that is road geek may figure it out.


thanks again for considering me for the autobus anonymous author.

RIP oscar the cat 2008-june 2nd 2009

we picked him up at the pound last august. he wasnt around long, but while i sat in the office all day he would sleep in the cat tree and hang with me all day. we have 2 other cats so the house isnt empty, but its missing the young friendly energy today.

shauna lyns birthday is friday, im going to san fran for a short trip friday night, but i'll be back saturday night for the bon fire taco stand party in the back yard.

maybe we'll save another cat from death at the pound next week.

oscar the cat got real sick this week and after $400 in tests at the vet they said he had a genetic heart problem and he was anemic and was going to die in a few days. there was nothing anyone could have done, he just had a bad draw.

heres a video of moose and oscar.

today the jackass that lives behind me was shooting some other black cat with a bb gun. i just about jumped over and shot him. but i held back and just yelled swear words at the low life over the fence. ya he heard me.

have you seen her

she went on an early morning run, left hours ago. im hungry, need bacon....

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hard knock life

i dont praise half ass work, if you are ok with it, too bad.

its the attitude of like....this is all we got so we better put up with it or be thankful we have at least this. I WENT FROM LUKE WARM TO HOT.

thats a lifestyle i dont embrace. RAISE THE BAR!!!!!!!

im mad as hell

whats up with $50 entry fees, mud dirt crits at the intermountaincup.com top 3 pro payouts.

good for team mona vie, those guys get entry fees paid plus they are rich any way. tbird, bart and alex are loaded.

this is why road racing is gay DQ's at sugar house crit???????

i was at the sugar house crit today handing out money and the stupid bitch missy the "official" came and kicked me off the course saying hand ups are illegal and they DQ'ed 3 or 5 guys they saw taking "hand ups"

what fucking joke

I hate missy and her stupid fucking rule book.
and i dont even care if she reads this. im sending it to marek too.
USCF sucks balls.

god thats the stupidest thing i have ever heard of

and her attitude has to go, ban this witch off racing.. what a buzz kill
and this isnt the first time this witch has given me trouble shes yelling like a banshee at me at the hell of the north telling me not to drive on the dirt road.

what the fuck is up this girls ass????????

i hate her!!!!!!
im never doing a UCA or road race in this town ever again along as shes around. do you understand how stupid this is that they DQ riders for taking money

somebody fire this girl, she isnt doing racing any good and she deserves to be fired.

foxden week in review

tuesday was a moto session with darren lill and jeff louder, the lill engine that could says sitting 2nd wheel behind the man doesnt give much draft. considering i've been trying to pack it on to provide a bigger windscreen with my wide ass and overhanging belly. jeff says it gets easier every year but darren says hes putting out 120 more watts sitting 2nd wheel than 1st wheel.

these guys were out at saltair doing laps for an hour in the mega (not mega to j-lo) crosswinds 35mph sustained with 1min intervals at 43mph. see if you can hang, be glad they dont race locally. they would blow that shit up and make you want to quit racing since you just got dropped so hard.


wedsnesday was atrain wanted some pain up emigration.
the train wasnt rollin on the way up but he had a valiant effort to little mtn and about lost his lunch.
then we picked up rachel on the way down for some 45mph drafting sessions in the aero tuck positions. one trip up the canyon was enough for the old buck, dz does it 3 times in 19mins a peice. see if you can copy that. i dont think so.

thursday was a mellow day in the yard, i watched shauna lyn do all the tilling in the back yard and then she gave me a massage. friday we went to costco and loaded up on mexi cokes and hersheys syrup.i needed a new tv to watch the nba finals

the golden years

death hike 09

the past year has been a steady diet of mtn dew and couch time, if youve seen me lately im sure you wouldnt disagree. the pounds are piling up and i didnt imagine my golden years chasing the 120 pound shauna lyn up to snowy peaks for hrs on end.

i need some more couch time.

kday racing knows whats up

check more sickness here

thanks to kday racing for the update.

random

ppa is for real

we spent the day up in t town, the home of marty nothstein. track super hero.
the omish showed up and wanted to buy some bikes. that was a sight to see.


i didnt get a ticket but i saw these natzis walking around and i would not ever live here. this place is dirtier and more packed than nyc/san fran combined.
traffic jams are worse than nyc.

after you live in utah (the golden bubble) its bad to see such poverty and filth in the usa. ya there are worse places in the world but this is usa. philly is the bottom of the barrel.

ok that was a bit overkill but you get the idea.
people are moving out of town because of the organized gang and fraud called PPA, i wouldnt live here, but if you keep getting parking tickets and fines then dont own a car. people are too dependant on their beloved.


manyunk!!!!!!!!!!!!