time to think

thanks to bobby for the new club pic

well i have a short track race on sunday. its short, 20 mins. with a good power climb, loose gravel road and some pavement turns. i hate sucking so im goin to lay it out on the trail sunday. i dont care about the heat, the course or the competition. i should have could have been up there today. the last few 6 weeks have been up and down. one day i feel strong and another week its like i have nothing. the up and down roller coaster isnt too fun to deal with so i need to find another way to get going. i dont know how but i will.
if you want to see me blow up a race with a sly RMR attack at the gun come watch cuz im goin to throw it down or throw up trying.


so i called it a day after 10 minutes today i did a lap but i was going so slow i had to pull over and let everyone by, at least i helped chris peterson on the dh, he won the juniors and had a pretty good gap 20 mins in.
i was sitting in 15 at the bottom of the dh the snake train was super lame. the guys were wheel to wheel and not going fast at all. i had no power and it was very disappointing. to have all your friends at a race or knowing about it then come up short is pretty sad. then explaining or telling the same people why i sucked so bad is even harder. i dont like excuses or explaining so its easier to just do good and leave it at that.
if i could trade it for some earlier success i had in the year i would but thats the beauty of hind site.

so after my short attempt at a race i watched some guys suffer, sat in the car and thought about the current state of mind. went to lunch with a few good looking females, ya they are easy on the eyes and have personality as well, imagine that.
i went home for a few hours. fixed some bikes and did a road ride in the dark for hour and a half. riding in the dark is good for the eyes and legs. i still dont feel normal but in the morning im going to ride upper deer valley then watch the pros. so sunday at 2 it will be a different story.
i cant suck too many days in a row, its just impossible. chris holley ripped it up for 3rd. we should race more. it seems when im slow he races then when im ok him and his wife are on vacation some where. we have not raced much this year together except st george hurricane and sundance.

tomorrow night is a good get together at bart and rosies. all should come whether you were invited or not.
this forum is an invite and bart approved so just come and chill. many will be there and the fire pit is raging.

perspective is good. its a bike race but i hate not being up to par, if you know what im sayin.

more pics tomorrow, and i got todd wells comin up so that should be good reading.