so i decided to read a book last week

by dave deida.
here are some headlines i like.

"you are always searching for your freedom. the essential masculine ecstasy is in the moment of release from constraint. this could occur when facing death and living through it. succeeding in (and thus being released from) your purpose, and in competition (which is ritual threat of death). (check out sager on the right, all gq and ready to throw down)

the masculine is always seeking release from constraint into freedom. the feminine often doesnt understand these masculine ways and needs"

own your darkest desires

if a man disowns his dark masculine desire for freedom, then he kinks the hose of his masculine force. his energy will not flow freely, and his attention will be bound by unfulfilled yearnings. most importantly, if his hose is kinked in this way, he weakens his masculine capacity to stand fearless in the death that is conscious life. he will not be able to face the unknown, the groundless ground of being, and still function from his heart in love.

she needs your consciousness to match her energy

a man must be able to meet his woman with the consciousness equivalent to her energy. the feminine destructress must be met by the masculine destroyer. the goddess of devotion must be met by the god of all pervading love. dark or light, a man cant be stuck in, or avoid, any areas of his masculine capacity or his woman will test him there. these areas of testing are usually first on the dark side. only after trust is established there, only when the dark feminine lover knows she will be met by the dark masculine lover, will testing proceed toward the light.

by dave deida.

live and learn. its a hard pill to swallow.